Back Again but for how long....

It had been long since I wrote anything. I am not a blogger. till now I have not yet understood the blog concept.
 for me its a place where I can scribble something which anyone can view. Its like writting something on buses, on walls or any public place, anyone can see but few care to read what is written.

 I have not written anything for the past 2 years of which 1 year was spent completing PG and another year in teaching. I had spent 9 Months of this in Europe .. one of the most exciting time in my life.

maybe I will care to scribble the experiences so that anyone can read or maybe not.
I have just 2 or 3 friends in my blog list and I dont think they are bloggers. So ineffect no one will read anything I write. So should i give up writing or not?

If i get one comment maybe i will write. then i will fell like some one had seen my scribbling..
 :) :)
well thats the whole point of writing a blog right. get appreciated or  criticised. if nothing is happening should i write or not?

new phone !! but which??

well the easiest way to buy a new phone is to go to store ask for some phones within ur price range close ur eyes pick one.

tadaaaa u have ur new phone without much fuss..

otherwise u will have a very difficult time. let me tell u ,u have a big troubled mind ahead in choosing one if ur not a "gadget geek"(excluding al those who only have some more than basic knowledge on cells and who dont flip and look at a gadget ad often).

u have a very hard time.

u select one brand (mostly the same brand which u have been using)

u search in popular search engines(mostly coz u dont know which site to look). u realize there r many sites dedicated solely for d purpose of saying d specification of the cellphones existing in d market.( u can even compare 2 models or sometimes even 4. cool na )

u reach a decision then someone ask y u need this much costly phone ??

u realize,' ya dats true wat do i do with it nothing practically so i should rethink'.

u get confused again then ask whom all u know they tell dere opinion,

ur more confused.

finally u decide.

when u reach d store u see new model phones ur again confused like anything.then anyof the following happens

• u come out of d shop if u r too confused.
• if u dont have will power u come out buying d ones u actually never even gave another look at while deciding
• u buy the one u decided(the more stronger will powered ones) in d end.

well this is for those who dont bother to do much research

there r another group who decide for months and reach one decisions. if ur such a person just ignore this

hope u all have a nice phone hunting

All alone in a crowd..

I dont know whether u have felt like this ever..

You r surrounded by people, yet u feel lonely,like u have been left out, like the invitation to a party has gotten lost in mail or somewhere in the way..

you think some as your friend but somehow they forget to call u for many things, and later someone ask,' hey why were u not there' , then u r speechless.

Do u know how much it pains, when u come to know from others about something which u should have been in the front to do.That pain is like a dagger being thrust into your heart.

haven't u felt it atleast once??

well i fell it often.. i decide i wont let anyone do so but again and again i am failing in my resolve .

is it because i have less will power or is it because i am too sensitive..

have u had that trouble?

or i might be paranoid...

well i hope no one has to go through these experience ever.....

why

Why am I writing this, I don’t know.
Why I shouldn’t write I don’t know.
Why, why, why?? I question why.
Why do we ask questions?
Why do we smile, cry and frown?
Why do we do it?
Why do we kill, steal and murder?
Why do we love, like and care?
Why, I ask myself.
Will I ever have my answers, I wonder....

just my thoughts

:)

New year .. new ideas

hi

This is my first post this year. Hope i could write more.

Have a nice year

:)

life as its now.

it has been some 4 months since i left home to study. i am in a city very far from home(1560 km from nearest railway station) and different in all aspects. i came from southern end of Kerala and now am living in Mumbai.

I never thought I will come to mumbai. it has never even crossed my mind. only in films I have seen the place. I have heard many things about Her but nothing was to my expectation. it exceed 100 times of what I thought. now after 4 months, am in madly love with the city.
its life attracts me like anything. the freedom I got also might have influenced me. but I love Mumbai city .
I long to be back to my home but yet there is sadness in leaving her behind. that much she captivated me.
what made me love her?
is it here busy roads or the shops that are every where or the concrete forests??
what is the reason?
I dont know it. but I will always love her.
but I will go back to my home for she has more beauty than any other place. its most beautiful because its where my parents are, where my sweet sister is...
I have just hours to go before I return to my home. she waits for me like a mother and the city I leave behind is like my love.
ha, will there be a time when I will be forced to choose??
what will I take ??
I cant think of it.
when time comes I will know . let time and fate decide my future.
or will I be called to another place??
God alone knows what will happen
but I am happy to live my life like this.
:)
for never can u enjoy life thinking too much of future.
enjoy maximum when u can
:)

P.S: I dont know when my opinion will chnage for nothing is constant everything is changing

A passing thought.

The sound of the wave breaking on the rocks
woke me up from my daydream.
I laughed aloud thinkin of what i dreamt.
How could i dream that??
'How did i reach here?
Why did i choose this?',
I thought to myself.
i tried to think of those reasons,
but none came to my mind.
i bless that thought, which made me choose this
for without that i wouldnt be where i am now
looking out to the sea i smiled.
My mind was calm as the sea.
I turned and walked towards the sounds of laughter and joy.


about this poem:
i wrote this in 10 minutes so it will lack something. pl forgive the errors as am an begineer
:)
lol
:)